"The same events that drive people to rage and bitterness drive others to help and make a difference for the better."





I do my best to be the latter in life. I see what's wrong with this society, I see what's wrong with the people around me and I see what's wrong with this whole world and instead of being bitterly enraged by what I see, I attempt to make the change.




Okay, there's a lot to me, I will never deny that. But what you see and what I am are two very different things. I expect to be judged by you and will never falter in that belief as long as the people around me are the same.



My main philosophy on life is change. Everything changes, everything is malluable. I, as a person, will change like the wind, or ironically enough, like smoke or haze. Each new wind of ideas and experience will take me somewhere new. I am not holding onto anything at this stage, as that will be impossible. I am always looking forward, to where I can end up, but still enjoying what I have around me.



I live my life through my own morals, which as most philosophy should be taken, is a mixing pot of others. Everything I see, I absorb and learn from, although some more than others. Influences in media such as Fight Club, V For Vendetta, A Clockwork Orange, 1984 and even Mean Girls or Harry Potter. Books like three of the above-mentioned, Frankenstein and Long Hard Road Out of Hell influence my moral beliefs and music such as Jeff Buckley and Marilyn Manson help shape my personality through inspiration.



I will never claim to be original. I did not get my fringe off my own accord, I saw other people do it and liked how it looked. I did not start using and working with make up upon my own accord, I saw others and was inspired.

But this is true for everyone;

All reality is inspired and all reality is inspiration.



My thoughts of God and the likes are in the negative range. I do not see reality so scary that I have to invent imaginary figures and believe fairy tales. My views on religion can be seen Here.



Now, I am gay. I like the same gender (Which at least most of the time is male). I have always been like this and at this point of time, it seems I always will. If you have any issues with my habits or personality, I would like you to bring it up with me, rather than darting around behind my back with snide comments such as "Wanker faggot" or "poofter". Such discressions merely aid my sense of self-righteousness and martyrdom at the hands of the world around me. If you do the above-mentioned, I will bleed it for all it's worth.



I'm a believer in two opposing forces, Forgiveness and Retribution. What one of these I deal depends entirely on moods, but they can work together. For different acts, retribution is definately necessary. Many people do not learn from you turning your tail and letting them be.

Many people need the firm rule of retribution until they understand what they've done. You and I both should have this apply to us.

But some things, petty disputes or broken deals can easily be forgiven.





Music is an enormous part of my life. Listening, playing and creating. It is my release valve for my stress and angst that I gather as a teenager. I play for myself with the hopes of one day playing for you and everyone you know.

Politics disinterest only those whom they do not affect. Unfortunately, politics affect me. I am very into them, especially in areas such as civil rights and youth culture.

Make up is my aesthetic form of expression. How people take you as a person derives entirely from aesthetics. How confident you act, how confident you look. I love to be in people's faces with make up. I like to make people take two looks, "hey, wait, what?"'s are my favourite pass-time.





Friend-wise, I feel I'm pretty set. I have some beautiful and gorgeous friends and family. My closest friends, although I don't always treat them right, mean the world to me. Everyone who does not actively discredit me is gorgeous in my eyes. Those that do, however, do not expect any friendship whatsoever.





Yes, it's been a journey and very little about me has been touched. What you've just read goes out the window upon being with me. Or the me I give you. My sense of humor is obscene and my personality confronting. But who knows, this haze might be blown elsewhere soon enough.



But, my most important feature is the following;

I will not say what I can stand up for.

If, for whatever reason, I do, I will bow down immediately. I'm not spiteful or ignorant, respect is due where it is due, even to the most horrible of people.



All in all, I do encourage you to add me and talk to me! I do my best to reply but I cannot garuntee anything.





But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you. I love you. With all my heart, I love you.

- Valerie's Letter

Myspace, Networking, Music

Muse, Jeff Buckley, Radiohead, Sigur Ros, Marilyn Manson, Ben Harper, Inanimate Objects, Evanescence, Lior, John Butler Trio

Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Serenity, Kung Pow, The Anchorman

Firefly, Family Guy, The Simpsons, Supernatural

Harry Potter, Western Philosophy, Long Hard Road Out Of Hell, Lord of the Rings, …Not really a book person.hi